Trying to be happy.

Today, I attempted to forget about all the bad stuff. I just wanted to not think about everything and anything that caused me pain. But it didn't work, it just made everything worse, I overthinked. I just lost control of my thoughts, of my own mind. So today didn't go to plan, I had a breakdown after pe, as we were doing volleyball, and this guy, who is horrible, and everyone dislikes him. He just judged me for doing nothing wrong, he talked about me behind my back, even tho I was standing like next to them. I held back the tears for as long as I could until I got to the changing rooms, where I just broke. I know it's pathetic. So the rest of the day I have been feeling down, until I got home and me and C (my boyfriend) spoke. He gave me some amazing advice. He told me to think of the happy things, instead of trying to not think of the bad things. He told me to think of us, to think of my friend and a few of our jokes that we have together. You see when he told me this, something clicked, almost as if things finally slotted into place. It was then that I realised that this may be my way out of my sadness, to finally get through this. So as long as I have a few happy things to think about, maybe everything will be okay?