Arguments.

Wednesday was not such a good day for me, my best friend, was criticising me, for every little thing that I did. On Thursday she was still being wierd around me, she didn't really talk to me, and she was still criticising me. So on Thursday night, I decided to ask her if she was upset or mad at me. Then about 10 minutes later we are in a full argument over text. She said some really hurtful things such as:" I don't know who you are anymore". She brought the past back up, reminding me of who I used to be, and God it hurt. During the argument Charlie (C) was talking to her, he was offering to help her, as she suffers from self harm, seasonal depression and anxiety. Charlie was being nice, but for some reason she has a thing against him, And threw his help back in his face. It was unnecessary, she didn't have to be so mean and rude. She should have just politely declined. She was my best friend, yet she never told me anything, she would only tell the guy which she fancied. But he doesn't care, which is why he stopped talking to her. Yesterday, we had another argument, I just asked her if she could be nicer to Charlie, because he was upset. Then she haut makes it into an argument and starts saying things which she doesn't need to say! Last night, was shit for me, and I still am shit. I cut loads, I am so sad and hurt and I just don't want to do this anymore. She just can't see that I wanted to help her, I wanted to be there for her. But she never let me be. And now Charlie is talking to her, and it hurts having her talk to my boyfriend but not me. I hurt so much and I can't take it anymore, I don't want to be friends again to only get pushed down, as if she's better than me. I want to die.